This very strange stage where I can't fully focus on what I'm studying because I am thinking of how much I love [this thing I'm studying]. They say you forget about everything else when you love something, so what do you call this state I am currently in right now? Perhaps I'm just strange cause I can never seem to be able to "live in the moment". There's sort of like, a me, and an emma. I'm always watching emma like how everybody else is watching emma. Of course there are some people who do know 'me', not fully, but to some extent. Anyway, for now, back to reading.

SELF CONTROL.

(writing here just cause I can't bear to let go of my thoughts)